The hardest job to get right, and the easiest job to do wrong

Yesterday at training for work, something clicked in my head. That I was really blessed to have gotten the job at Anna Bing Arnold Children’s Center last summer. Where about 30 people applied and there was one 3 spots open and I actually was one of the three that got the job. It still blows my mind. But anyway being at the training yesterday I realized that I made the right decision to go for this job. And that I made the right decision to change my major to Child Development. 

I learned through the guest speaker we had Steve Erwin, that our center is one of the best ones out there. I know that a lot of people say that about their job, lol but how many people can say that their center is accredited and licensed? That we have teachers with child development units, bachelors and masters? Any who I finally understand that for right now, I am where I belong. I’m here to make a difference in these kids lives and that I’m here to give them something that I never had. Something that a lot of people out there don’t give children. 

For everyone out there that wants to say “Your job is easy” “all you do is babysit kids.” F U! None of you can last a day at my job. The things that I learn in class for my major actually apply a whole lot to my job and what I do there. We’re shaping these children’s lives. We’re giving them love and care and a friendship for a life time. We also get to know their parents and build great relationships with them. I know that I never thought that I would be working with children ages 0-3 but once it happened I fell in love with my job. To randomly get ambushed with hugs and kisses from these kids it totally makes you heart melt and your day. T see them smile or laugh and having a great time with the other children and with you it really does warm your heart. And I know there are people out there who can’t handle working with kids of all ages, but you also have to understand those of us who do, we love it. Its one of the most rewarding jobs out there. It’s also one of the hardest jobs out there that really tests your patience and you as a person.

It was amazing to know that Steve Erwin felt how most of us in this profession feel, we’re underpaid and not taken seriously. YES GUYS this is a profession! We actually make a difference in these children and family’s lives. But I guess people on the outside don’t see that. And most of the time we are taken advantage of. And its because of all the stereotypes from back then when teaching was a woman’s job. That we don’t do much and for that we shouldn’t make that much either. But in my opinion, I really do believe that we do as much as doctors do. Yeah we can’t prescribe medicine or heal the sick, or perform surgery and what not, but we DO make an impact on these people’s lives. And we can save lives too. We’re able to reach out to people and help them. 

None the less, I love my job. I love my major. And I’m starting to learn that this is who I am. I love helping people and I love making a difference in someone’s life as well as being able to see them grow. I know that this job at the child care center is just for now. I know that I want to get my masters in family and marriage therapy and that I want to work with everyone that needs and wants it. I want to be able to work in the high school environment or open my own practice. So maybe I will end up getting a PhD. But we shall see. I guess being in a place where you work with so many passionate people you start to learn a lot about yourself too. And I’m learning that this is something I’m passionate about. 


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I don’t know why, but I feel optimistic about this school year and about the future. Even if I’m going to be broke for a bit and I’ll be drowning in school work. Something feels different. 




We live in an age where we feel guilt whenever we have to cut someone off but the reality is that some relationships do need to die, some people do need to be unfollowed and defriended. We aren’t meant to be this tethered to the people in our past. The Internet mandates that we don’t burn bridges and keep everyone around like relics but those expectations are unrealistic and unhealthy. Simply put, we don’t need to know what everyone else is up to. We’re allowed to be choosy about who we surround ourselves with online and in real life, even if it might hurt people’s feelings.
Ryan O’Connell, You Don’t Have To Be Friends With Everybody  (via sexual-feelings)

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Two weeks

Today I realized that in 2 weeks I’m going to be entering my 4th year of college. And it’s kinda scary. To know that I’m so close but so far from getting my first degree. After fall quarter, I’ll have 13 more classes (that I know of) til I can walk across that stage and to be able to say that I did it all on my own.

But today, I also realized that in two weeks, I will not be working two part time jobs anymore. That I’m finally going to be working just one job again and being able to spend more time on my studies. It kinda freaks me out. One, because I have no idea if being paid once a month and having one pay check will make ends meet. Second, because I have no idea how I am going to handle being on campus all day and night monday through friday. Thirdly, because I don’t know if working one job will really make me focus on my studies more. 

This new school year is going to be different. I’m taking all night classes, and working only in the morning/day time. And I have no idea if i’ll be able to focus… lol I’ve learned that I’m a morning/afternoon class kind of person. I learn and focus more. Where as in night class I find it hard to stay awake and to pay attention :( I’m really hoping that this quarter is the start of something new. For me to be able to “condition” myself I guess you can say. Because I know that from now on, most of my classes are going to be at night and i’ll be working in the morning… Especially for grad school. I know that it’s going to be hard at first but something tells me that with caffeine, I’ll be able to do it! 

I still can’t believe that I’m about to leave my “first” real job. It is honestly bittersweet. I’m glad to finally leave the place where Chinese people are the devil and I won’t be hearing people speak Chinese to me like i understand them. And I won’t have to deal with crazy customers and answer stupid questions any more lol. But I am sad to leave my co workers and my usual customers. I mean come on, I am one of the best sales people there as well as the best customer service lol. But its crazy because this job was my main source of income for so long. And to finally leave makes me worry if i am going to make ends meet. Something tells me I will find a way cause i always do. And well I obviously wouldn’t leave if I really needed to make it work. But damn…. In two weeks I will be getting some of my freedom back.. for a quarter or two anyway lol. 

I think it freaks me out because I’ve grown so used to being so stressed and being so busy. But I know that even with out this job, I’m still going to be stressed. I just have more time to sleep and more time to do my school work. And more me time. On the occasion lol. But overall I’m excited for school to start. Scared but excited for the new year. To be that much closer to graduating and being able to have a piece of paper that says I did it! lol Mostly so that I can start my masters already! Yes weirdly, I am already over undergrad and want to start my maters already lol. 

I didn’t think that summer would go by this fast… and I did not notice that school starts in two weeks… Its kinda sad. But at least I can say that this summer was a good one and one to remember. I may have worked a lot, but I actually got to relax and have a lot of fun. I somewhat got to be wild and drink a bit, I went to the beach many more times than the last, I got to spend it with the people I’m closest to. Even though I didn’t get to go home, I did get to see some of my family so it kind of evens out. lol But its not over yet! I still have two more weeks! :D


I normally don’t do #mcm but he’s in Mexico and Im starting to miss him.. lol so here’s to you Bubba! #henevertakesnormalpictures #alwaysakidwithhim #beachbums #bubba

I normally don’t do #mcm but he’s in Mexico and Im starting to miss him.. lol so here’s to you Bubba! #henevertakesnormalpictures #alwaysakidwithhim #beachbums #bubba


zodiaccity:

I am able to sense things before it happens, almost like I’m psychic. True or False?

zodiaccity:

I am able to sense things before it happens, almost like I’m psychic. True or False?


"Its not a good bye but a see you later" dinner. Its hard to believe that in a couple weeks, I won’t be seeing a handful of you guys everyday any more. You guys have taught me so much and we’ve all grown to become a family. I’m really going to miss you guys! #annabingarnold #celebrationdinner #infantandtoddlerteachers #mycoworkersarebetterthanyours #itriededitingthepicture #goodluckonyournewjourneys

"Its not a good bye but a see you later" dinner. Its hard to believe that in a couple weeks, I won’t be seeing a handful of you guys everyday any more. You guys have taught me so much and we’ve all grown to become a family. I’m really going to miss you guys! #annabingarnold #celebrationdinner #infantandtoddlerteachers #mycoworkersarebetterthanyours #itriededitingthepicture #goodluckonyournewjourneys