life of a broke college student.

And it makes me realize that I had a really good life. I had great friends that were there for me, my life revolved around teams and people that i loved, I was all about dance and had a family that love me. I had a bunch of good memories and I look really happy and like i’m having a great time. When I used to bring a camera everywhere and take pictures with everyone at every event or get together. I’d upload really late, but they’d get uoloaded. lol. Now living here in LA, I feel lonley sometimes, like I have no one. I don’t dance anymore, and I dont have my family here. I miss high school. Those were the good years. And I took them for granted. Always working so hard and wishing that time would speed up already so that I can get the heck out of there. Now I’msitting here missing home, and that I could rewind time. Back to relive my high school years. When I was so involved with everything and everyone. I seemed so happy back then. But at the same time I know that I wasn’t. A part of me felt like something was missing and that I didn’t belong. Now that i’m finally out of San Jose and here in LA, I’m starting to feel the same way again… But I remond myself each and every day that I’m here for myself and to do something for my family and the future. So I must continue to remind myself and continue to work my butt off to get to where I really need to be in life. I have to remind myself that as much as I miss home and want to go home, I can’t. Because nothing is the same anymore and that it’s best that everything is now in the form of memories. Although there are some things that are still the same and that my friends are still there for me. Even though sometimes it feels like they forgot about me. :( But I honestly can’t wait to go home for spring break. I wish I was able to spend my birthday with them. It feels weird not being with family and my friends from home for a birthday. First year i’m not planning anything for my birthday.. lol. I guess we’ll see how it goes.